Recovering Heart

Hey everyone!  This is the third, and final, chapter of Eat Your Heart Out, at least for now. In this post, I will be talking about body dysmorphia so if this topic does not sit well with you, I would suggest skipping this one and come back when I have new things up! It'll be soon! For those of you deciding to stay, enjoy! If you have been reading all my other posts, especially in this series, you'd know a little about me: 1) I care about my appearance, and 2) I did not have a good relationship with food. Well in this post, I will be sharing more of myself and my struggle with body dysmorphia. It is difficult for me to see myself objectively. The way I actually look in reality and how I see myself are very very different.  I remember telling myself "you won't fit in any of these dresses" when I went shopping for a graduation dress with my friend. I thought for sure that I was bigger than any of the sample sizes they had in the store. I didn't want to try any o...

Hey everyone,  I hope the last post spoke to you and helped you look into yourself, your past and think about how those experiences shaped you and what they can do to help you fulfil your purpose. Thank you for reading the last post and coming back for this one!  If you haven't seen the last post, the gist of it is this: I care about how I look, maybe a little too much. This is useful information haha  Despite having gone through a healing process, my eating disorder hasn't completely disappeared. There has been multiple occasions in the past 6 years when I would think to myself and say, "Oh, I feel awful today, I feel so fat. I'm just going to skip lunch for the next 3 days and I'll be fine." Before I know it, I would go a week without having lunch and I would justify it every single time.  Another contributor to this obsession is a messy incident that happened when I was younger. Long story short, it left me with the impression that I am only valuable when I...